Emily的後花園

I know I shouldn't, but I'm really tired of listening.

Everytime when I hear the news, it's always bad news, and everytime when bad news come, I always should be the one who stay in from of the company and 24hr on-line.

I know what happen on her is not easy, I know that was part of my responsibility. I am worry as her, my questions are as much as hers, but everytime when she doubt, I have to put all of my frame of mind and be the light to guide and lead her. I can't absent, I can't have bad mood, I should be strong as what I usually did.

I am not that kind of person can keep talking the same issue for long time. If things happen, try to figure out, than move forward to next step. But she is not, absolutely not the same person, so she talks and talks and talks, and I listen and listen and must give feedback!

I almost forget how to cry, because I am the one who not allow to doing so.

I am tired, I am exhausted.

But I won't tell her anything, she is my only sister, I would never hurt her feeling.

That's why I type in English.